My confession for this evening is that sometimes I get lonely. Feeling selfish for wanting to have my own existence while pouring my whole being into the kids. I just find that it would be delightful to have a bit of both worlds one of B.C. (before children) and that of a mom to three amazing beings. I know that time changes and these occasional and temporary feelings of being tied down to the point of not being able to commit myself to anything for myself are just that.... temporary but it is evenings like these that Ian is still not home that I just wish that I could have my own life. That there was things and activities of my own that I could escape to while waiting, waiting for another day.
On another note we got through another holiday, July Fourth. Not one of a festive person I find myself repeatedly proud of my performance in ensuring that the kids had a blast. The realization that I need to work on our patriotism hit me when my six year old son asked who is America and where is she, in response to me announcing that it is America's birthday. On the other hand my two year old was just thrilled that it was someone's birthday and have to have a cake with candles. Oh to be a kid where everything is so simple and the weight of feeling lonely cause your days are consumed by kids and the only other adult that lives in the house has not been home for about 16 hours never fades you.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Shopping trickery
I am secretly proud of how sneaky I can be sometimes. I completely fooled my kids into going grocery shopping with me. I woke up this morning and exclaimed that I had just been dreaming about donuts (true) and that we should go and get some. The kids quickly got dressed and out the door we went to get donuts.
Oh did I mention we just needed to run by the store to get some milk. My sneakiness of alternative shopping plan worked wonders in two ways.
1)The kids had donuts on their minds and were not in the shopping mind frame of lets go crazy in the store and
2)I was not stressed out anticipating the kids to be a handful in the store, there was no shopping list and really and truly kids I am just picking up a few things.
I was able to get the weeks groceries and found donuts on the bakery clearance rack without losing my sanity and stressing out. It was awesome.
Alright for all the people who do not know about grocery shopping, with three young children, do not know about yet another confession of the stay at home mom.
We dread it, despise it, and above all resent the fact that grocery stores do not have a drop of area for the children to play in and be supervised while their mothers go and spend outrageous amounts of money weekly.
There are numerous times that I wish that I could just get a stick of gum and go check out and when the cashier asks me if I found everything ok just hand over my shopping list with a smile and say, "no my kids would not let me focus on the list long enough to read it so if you could be a dear and find everything on the list for me that would be just lovely."
So next time you see a mother shopping with her dearest, face red, voice sounding demon possessed, blood vessels bulging, and the children laughing in bliss, please either give her a wide berth or offer to pay for a box of donuts for all the children that pretend that they are not shopping but are just out to get a donut.
Oh did I mention we just needed to run by the store to get some milk. My sneakiness of alternative shopping plan worked wonders in two ways.
1)The kids had donuts on their minds and were not in the shopping mind frame of lets go crazy in the store and
2)I was not stressed out anticipating the kids to be a handful in the store, there was no shopping list and really and truly kids I am just picking up a few things.
I was able to get the weeks groceries and found donuts on the bakery clearance rack without losing my sanity and stressing out. It was awesome.
Alright for all the people who do not know about grocery shopping, with three young children, do not know about yet another confession of the stay at home mom.
We dread it, despise it, and above all resent the fact that grocery stores do not have a drop of area for the children to play in and be supervised while their mothers go and spend outrageous amounts of money weekly.
There are numerous times that I wish that I could just get a stick of gum and go check out and when the cashier asks me if I found everything ok just hand over my shopping list with a smile and say, "no my kids would not let me focus on the list long enough to read it so if you could be a dear and find everything on the list for me that would be just lovely."
So next time you see a mother shopping with her dearest, face red, voice sounding demon possessed, blood vessels bulging, and the children laughing in bliss, please either give her a wide berth or offer to pay for a box of donuts for all the children that pretend that they are not shopping but are just out to get a donut.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
It is just not cool....
Well I am starting this blog that has been on my mind for a while.
I find myself sitting here on a Saturday night gazing at a computer screen in the attempt to control my desire to strangle some children as I type out the inner confessions of a stay at home mom.
I am beginning my confessions with three children that call me mom. Their ages are 8 (9 in 26 days), 6 and 2, and to complicate their ages I have a boy, that is all boy, surrounded by his two sister that despite my best efforts are very girlie and can not stand his boyish antics.
Well my confession tonight is that my dearest, who works long hours during the week aka leaving me for long hours outnumbered three to one, got a call at quarter to 7 this evening to come and hang out with some friends.
"You should go" was my response.
Little did I think that he was going to be leaving 15 min later while all the children were still up.
"YOU ARE LEAVING NOW, I thought that you would at least wait till the kids have gone to bed."
"Oh they are practically in bed you just have to send them there and if I waited till they were asleep than it would be like 9 a clock before I left, bye."
So here I find myself wishing that I had friends that called me to hang out Saturday night (oh yeah that's right all my friends have kids and have quiet nights in on Saturday night) so that I could leave my beloved children and be an absolute and only an adult (not a mom which is far different from an adult) for oh maybe 4 or 5 hours.
So begins my confessions of a stay at home mom who loves this part in her life but every so often wishes for sanity and a few hours off. So to all the dearest that care.... It is just not cool to leave a stay at home mom on Saturday night BEFORE the kids are asleep to go and hang out with your buddies.
I find myself sitting here on a Saturday night gazing at a computer screen in the attempt to control my desire to strangle some children as I type out the inner confessions of a stay at home mom.
I am beginning my confessions with three children that call me mom. Their ages are 8 (9 in 26 days), 6 and 2, and to complicate their ages I have a boy, that is all boy, surrounded by his two sister that despite my best efforts are very girlie and can not stand his boyish antics.
Well my confession tonight is that my dearest, who works long hours during the week aka leaving me for long hours outnumbered three to one, got a call at quarter to 7 this evening to come and hang out with some friends.
"You should go" was my response.
Little did I think that he was going to be leaving 15 min later while all the children were still up.
"YOU ARE LEAVING NOW, I thought that you would at least wait till the kids have gone to bed."
"Oh they are practically in bed you just have to send them there and if I waited till they were asleep than it would be like 9 a clock before I left, bye."
So here I find myself wishing that I had friends that called me to hang out Saturday night (oh yeah that's right all my friends have kids and have quiet nights in on Saturday night) so that I could leave my beloved children and be an absolute and only an adult (not a mom which is far different from an adult) for oh maybe 4 or 5 hours.
So begins my confessions of a stay at home mom who loves this part in her life but every so often wishes for sanity and a few hours off. So to all the dearest that care.... It is just not cool to leave a stay at home mom on Saturday night BEFORE the kids are asleep to go and hang out with your buddies.
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